true honesty

i am tired

i am stressed

i am writing what comes to mind

my eyelid is twitching

my head hurts

yet...saying all of that doesn't help me feel any better

why? 

because negative words make me feel bad 

i can honestly say that this is the most honest i have been when writing on here

instead of censoring myself...i am just typing

i have been trying to lose weight since the start of the year

my resolution was 5 pounds a month or 60 pounds for the year

however...i have only managed to remain even with ups and downs throughout the month

i haven't been working out and i think that is why the weight isn't coming off

while i don't practice lent...i decided to use it as an opportunity to stop drinking cokes

i feel better 

i'm drinking more water...which feels good

i just need to get off my butt and get moving

i just need to move